weekender...

i woke up feeling excited about going to the temple today. this was after all one of the few days in the year where life used to be about bliss and feeling everything you could be happy about. One glimpse at the crowd in the temple here in denver and i just didnt want anything to do with the place or the ppl.

i was at Sam's place last evening for the bbq party. the laughs were there, the comments too. poker was fun, though i didnt have the slightest clue what the hell was going on and only won the pot when i went all in. the crowd of 20 became 4 by ten and i left at 1030. i just drove and drove and drove through the empty streets with the airport lounge music playing in my car and it started raining. this was also closest to bliss ive wanted to be in a long while.

has anything changed?
have i?

i have all the questions, i have all the answers. i have everything,
except the congruence in my thoughts.